PrInCeSs CyNtHiA

2009-01-13T00:31:00.002+11:00

This blog had been with me for so long so for the new year i will change my blog address to http://cynthia-hudgen-life.blogdrive.com/ so just link me there... i had decided to go ITE to take higher nitec in biotech while retake my 'O' level again but this time i retake six subjects only... Therefore if i do well in my 'O' level i will take private 'A' level while studying in poly lor my new year resolution is to study hard this year...

2009-01-12T17:42:00.000+11:00

I am sad i did not do well this year still failing my exam...

Scared, Nervous, worries and depress

2009-01-09T23:11:00.002+11:00

I am Scared, Nervous, Worried and depress because on Monday 'O' level result will be release... That is three days away and i am very already have negative thought i feel so depress and i cannot concentrate on my work... I am so sad.... So tired but cannot really have a good sleep as result will be release soon... I already have bad thought that i will not do well... I am so stressed as i keep thinking... But hope everything is not what i thought... Really want to graduate soon and really want to study JC and get to university as soon as possible... Hope i will succeed and i think i am having bad thought and thinking of negative again so will try to blog either on Monday as i will be taking a half day leave so will be home around 2pm... Will see my result first and then blog my feeling and thought on that day... I am really afraid i will do badly and now i am nervous, worried and depress...

Today i thought i am having chicken pox but my dad i have it once three years again so i will not have it again... Cos i saw i got five to ten dot on my tummy then i thought is chicken pox but not sure wait till three days later then see again... Now feeling afraid, nervous, worried and depress.... :( *__*

I am tired of my life.

2009-01-06T23:22:00.002+11:00

Today i cried.... So sadly because my parent scolded me... I took money from them when i start working but is only temp job as i am still a student why they cannot understand that i want to save money for my further education in Australia... I am totally sad and devastated. From tomorrow onwards, i will not eat and save all my money as i am using my own money so i will save it and eat biscuit everyday as i am totally upset with my own family... I have no one to talk to and i can only talk to my own blog to say out my own feeling... I will not have a happy Chinese New year as i am not happy with my own life... Life is not perfect, i feel like ending my own life... You all will not understand my pain cos you do not have a parent like me... I am tired of my life and i feel like ending my own life... I am stressed and depressed.... 'O' level result will be out next week if i did not do well i am thinking of ending my life as no one care about me.... I am tired of everything... For everything i do, no matter right or wrong no one care they only care for their own thing... I hate myself for i do not love myself... I am a nobody love child therefore i always got blame and being look down and dislike by others therefor no body will care about me even i die... Why is life so painful even i try to live happily... Life sux... I use my job to numb me from all disturbance but the pain came back after work as my parent blame me and scold me whenever they like and they take me for granted. Whatever they ask, i do for them. In return i got nothing back from them... Therefore, i promise myself from tomorrow onwards, i shall not do anything for them even errands thing for them. You will never know the true me unless you try to know me well as my parent also do not know me well... *__*

2009-01-01T19:49:00.005+11:00

Haiz... This blog have been with me for three years already... There's sorrow and happiness... Haha... Thanks to daddy i am happy go lucky kids and thanks to grandpa and grandma for taking care of me and i enjoyed their accompany and Chinese New Year is coming they gave me money to start my new year and to buy new clothes but i choose to save the money for my education and they know it very well... *__* Buying my new year clothes soon... Result is coming out soon... I am afraid and nervous... I do not know what should i do to calm my nerve... I am stressed, tired and worried about my exam result which will be release soon... Will i have a happy Chinese New Year or a sad Chinese New Year... There are things that i want to do... I do not know what should i do as i do not have any plan now as i have to wait till my result is out before i can plan for anything... I have both good and bad plan for myself... Whatever decision i make will dad support me or he will have another plan for me... I know Jesus through Mother Mary will help me and guide me in whatever decision i make... Life is hard and indecisive at times but i always hear and take opinion from others before deciding what i should do... Now just have to continue to wait and be nervous, worried and stressed on the exam results as there's nothing i can do... I finally realised i want to be a catholic as catholic pray to Jesus through Mother Mary and after being a catholic i finally realise how close i am with Jesus... I also realise that I share my sorrow and pain by praying hard to Mother Mary... Mother Mary my dearest mother for i adore you... Today is New year but i stayed at home for the whole for i feel tired to go out... Feel so tired... Not blogging soon but will be blogging when i am free... This Saturday gonna go collect the watch i reserved.. I am sad today and my mod was damp by my dad he scolded me because i wrote a few pages on the notebook and did not finish using the whole book he was like saying i waste the book that's why i failed my exam.... Sad... It's not a good start for the year. I think i will have a unlucky year ahead and bad luck cos i got scolded on the first day of the year... ^__^

What do you feel when you love someone?

Yes, love is an emotion, a feeling, a wanting
LOVE IS ACCEPTING.....
Acceptance is labeling someone as "okay" and having
no particular desire to change them.
Who they are is perfectly fine with you.
You pose no condition on whether you will love them or not.
This is call unconditional love.
When your love IS conditional,
the moment they step outside your set of conditions,love evaporates.
LOVE IS APPRECIATING.....
Appreciation is one step beyond acceptance.
Its when your focus is on what you like about another.
We look at them and feel this sweeping appreciation for who they are,
their joy, their insights, their humor, their companionship, etc.
When someone says they are "in love"with another,
they mean their appreciation is so enormous for this person
that it consumes their every thought.
LOVE IS WANTING ANOTHER TO FEEL GOOD.....
We want those we love to be happy, safe, healthy, and fulfilled.
We want them to feel good in all ways, physically, mentally
and emotionally.
LOVE IS ATTENTION.......
Love expressed is when you give your attention,
your time, your focus to someone.

Who hasn't experienced the pain of love?
Or is it the pain of rejection?
The pain of self doubt? The pain of fear?

Love is not painful, it feels incredible.
The pain and hurt we feel doesn’t come from love,
it comes from our doubts, fears, anxiety, perceived rejections,
broken trusts, anger, jealousy, envy, etc.

When we are fearful, angry, anxious, unhappy, or jealous,
are we truly experiencing a state of love?
They sure feel different, don't they?
Love feels warm, open, joyous and filled with
a deep sense of appreciation.
Pain steps into a love relationship when you switch it
from a "wanted relationship," into a "needed relationship."
You don't NEED any one relationship.
Want? Yes. Need? No.

If you go into a relationship not feeling terribly good about yourself,
you're more likely to become dependent on your partner
to help you feel good about yourself.
If we felt empty before they appeared in our lives,
we fear the emptiness returning if they leave,
so their staying with us becomes paramount.
That dependency can create all kinds of fear and unhappiness
when there's a perceived threat to you staying together.

If we aren’t giving ourselves the acceptance we crave,
we look to those around us to provide it for us.
Again, none of this has a thing to do with the love you feel,
but everything to do with the fear you feel.

If you really want to remove the love feelings of fear and unhappiness,
the first step is to improve your self awareness and self acceptance.

We MUST be honest & have trust to our love.

What YOU can do to improve your relationships.
1) Talk with your partner openly and honestly.
2)Don't sacrifice yourself for the relationship.
3)Take responsibility for your feelings.
4)Know you can only change yourself.
5)Be yourself always.
6)Know your intentions behind your words.
7)Communicate your wants and needs to your partner.
8)Accept them as they are.
9)Let go of absolute value judgments.
10)Drop your expectations of how they "should" be.
11)Listen with your whole body, mind and soul.
12)Express your appreciation and gratitude openly and often.
13)Examine your beliefs about love relationships.
14)Use humor to defuse difficult situations.
15)Examine your desire to control your partner.
16)Have a dialogue about your beliefs.

2008-12-31T23:54:00.005+11:00

Yeah... Today is the last day of the year... Haha... There is sadness and happiness in the year of 2008... But now have to say goodbye to year 2008 soon... Haha... New year mean starting anew so i should make some changes in myself to welcome the new year... Today after work went out to shop... Went to eat ice cream and chessy curry chicken and also went to face shop to buy some stuff and also went to mini toons to buy gummy... Haha... Haha then call dad to fetch me home... Haha went home call swatch watches store to reseve watch the watch is quite nice but cost around $139 then this coming saturday then go down to collect the watch here is the link of the watch http://www.swatch.com/sg_ms/specials/valentine.html okay that's it for today abit tired already... I am so tired, stressed and worried about the 'O' level result which will be release in mid January which is 2 weeks from now... Just pray hard and hope everything turn out well and turn positively well... *__*

Times of Your Life

Good morning, yesterday
You wake up and time has slipped away
And suddenly it's hard to find
The memories you left behind
Remember, do you remember?

The laughter and the tears
The shadows of misty yesteryears
The good times and the bad you've seen
And all the others in between
Remember, do you remember
The times of your life?

Reach out for the joy and the sorrow
Put them away in your mind
The mem'ries are time that you borrow
To spend when you get to tomorrow

Here comes the saddest part
The seasons are passing one by one
So gather moments while you may
Collect the dreams you dream today
Remember, will you remember
The times of your life?

Gather moments while you may
Collect the dreams you dream today
Remember, will you remember
The times of your life?

poem taken from my friend de blog thinking it for a long time what it's say is true...

2008-12-26T23:31:00.003+11:00

Today is Boxing day. Too bad Singapore do not celebrate Boxing day therefore is not a public holiday for all of us. Today wake up at 6.45am. Prepare myself for work then finish preparing myself at 7.20am. Meet my sister for breakfast at the same coffee shop near my granny house. But luckily my sister ordered for me already. I ate the same thing which is French Toast with Tea 'O'. Then I spend ten minutes to finish my breakfast. Then walk to the MRT station but on the way there i went back to granny house to get my pocket money cause i forget to get it from my dad. Then me and my sister walk to the MRT station to take train to our workplace then we part at city hall interchange. Then I take train to Novena station then i walk up to kopitiam to take folk and spoon cause i forget to bring it. After getting it i walk to the back door of the pharmacy. Then i went to punch my card at 8.22am then wait till 8.30am then start work... *__* Then do packing in the morning. Then went to the pharmacy store to take the stock for the pharmacist. After 15 minutes went back to pharmacy.Then have to do sorting in the afternoon...Went for lunch at 12.30nn. Heat up my food using the microwave and ate in the pantry. Rice and soup and dark chocolate truffle log cake for lunch. After finish eating went to buy medicine for granny. 3pm ronald and randy went to buy starbuck haha... Its their lunch time... Ronald bought me mocha frap and i wait till off work then drink then he help me put into the fridge and label my name on it.. Then finish sorting at 5.50pm as we ask permission to go in to eat cake as lilian from my recruitment agency bought cake for temp staff to eat so happy eating in the pantry till 6 plus as i took my drink out from the fridge to eat... Haha...

2008-12-25T22:56:00.002+11:00

Its Christmas today... I feel so tired today... Haha... Today use computer the whole day then went to Tampines Mall The Royal at basement 1 to buy log cake with my brother.... Then went back home....why cant i have a quiet Christmas i had enough of those quarrel and argument ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......... Why cant my that stupid mum shut her big mouth up she like to add oil to the fire... I really hate her she is naggy and like to talk the whole day without feeling tired... I am tired of all this thing.... I just want to leave as soon as possible once i complete my studies here...

2008-12-24T20:37:00.010+11:00

yesterday did not blog because i came home a bit late... Haha... Today rain like hell in the morning, my shirt got wet because of the rain... Bought breakfast when alight at square 2 at novena... Then went to work at 9.15am.. Then start working... Then today is Christmas eve so half day... End work at 2.15pm... Then went to novena square to walk till 3.47pm then take MRT home... Yesterday had fun... after work went to pharmacy Christmas party at level 4 staff lounge at 6 pm... Had fun there... ate my dinner there and play games there... it is the same level as learning vision at work which is a childcare Centre... Then take picture with some friends... Then play some fun games... Then lucky draw for the permanent staff over at the pharmacy party... Haha... The staff lounge is nice look like a chalet... Haiz... The party end around 9.37pm then i had two bags full of gifts and goodie to bring home... Haha... One of the thing is hair dye and is copper brown colour and the rest are drink and food to eat... And some medication thing...will add some other photo next time

2008-12-23T00:07:00.004+11:00

Today work as usual but today start work at 8.30am.. Did not eat my breakfast before starting work... But luckily my lunch is at 11.30am... Haha... Then i had fun the whole day... Then went to help others printer with the label since i am so free... Today had a lot of fun... Jokes around with people i know... Haha... Today went to face shop to buy shampoo, toner and body wash spend around $115.40 after 5% off then got a lifelong membership card... Haha... Can spend at the face shop in Australia if i go there for further studies and korea face shop if i go there for vacation... Haha... wanna be a future doctor... Doctor is not a profession but a calling.... will upload the photo of what i bought tomorrow... Haha...

2008-12-21T12:51:00.004+11:00

I just finish watching high school musical 3 on tudou.com.... I am starting to love high school musical... Haha.... Love is tough and stressful and life isnt perfect... There are up and down but if we manage to overcome it we will be able to overcome other things... Haha... Love the song in High school musical... Today no work... Haha... Yesterday ate subway till i almost puke... The portion is too big so i separate to two meals to eat... Haha... Wanna buy Baby G watch Haha... saw swatch watch design for the valentine quite nice.. Yesterday i cry cry and cry... Then slept... I feel the world is not complete haiz wanna leave singapore as soon as possible to Australia to further my studies... Having headache cos she keep nagging i don feel like i am at home when i come home... Always feel like staying out late... I feel so tired with my life... Don feel like home... When i go Australia to study i will not miss anything here except for my sister but she will be joining me to study in Melbourne, Australia...

Life sux....

2008-12-18T22:42:00.003+11:00

sake body wash kit
My life wasn't as perfect as what others think... I totally hate myself and the life i lead.... Today work as usual then had lunch at kopitiam... Then after lunch went back to work... Today receive present from ida and faridah... CHOCOLATES... One of my favourite.. Sadness fill my heart today.... Then after work went to Novena square... Bought sake body kit from the Face shop its help to dehydrate dry skin, relief stress and tension and others... Quite cheap now is only $18.90... Haha x'mas season... Then after that went home... Didnt have dinner... wanna eat but my stupid asshole mum say that something make me upset till i lost my appetite and decided not to eat.... Hating myself and i hate my life... I love my daddy but daddy does not seem to love me and dote on me... What is a real happiness i don know but i know what is bitterness... I had always been the one who is bitter because all i know is bitter come before sweet... Life isn't as perfect as what i thought it will be but i still will not change my life to leave this country the soonest is two to three years time... But will i miss everything here... Still get monthly living allowance from dad and earn my own school fee... What else do i need to depend on my dad... Although dad sometime give me what i want and deserve but i don seem to be very happy afterward although i am happy at the beginning... Haiz... Today then realise life is not as perfect as i thought i am.... Today then realise that i three month didnt pay my phone bill... :(

Tired

2008-12-18T01:09:00.002+11:00

Haha... My blog is in Melbourne therefore its faster... I had been very stressed this past few days thinking about what i will be like if i go Australia Monash University to study... Haha... I am also very stressed because Exam result will be out next month and do not now how well is my result that will be in the result slip... Haha... I am dann tired with all the thinking..... Ahhhhhhhhhhhh..... I had to worry about the result because it will only be out next month and in Mid January... If i did well for my exam and meet what i expected i will have my fav treaty but if i did not do well i will suicide myself cos this is the 2nd time i did my 'O' level so now i can only pray hard hope that my result will be able to allow me to enter JC... haiz... Now worry about the result but work made me forget about all my worries cos this month had been a busy month in Pharmacy and work since to end fast cos its always busy... Haha... Haha... Now only worried about my 'O' level result so i shall not think of others things although i want to think and dream of it... I miss daddy swensens treaty... Haha... Hope and wish my 'O' level result is better than what i expected and qualify to get into JC... L1R5 less than 20 points... Haha that's is what i half wish for if i cannot meet my target hope my result still can qualify me to get into JC... worries but work made me not to think of all those worries as i am tired and stressful but i learn a lot of new things in Pharmacy... Haha...

2008-12-16T00:02:00.002+11:00

Today was a tiring day for me... Haha... On my way to work... Walk to MRT station and take MRT to novena... Today ate chocolate bun and drink milk milk in the morning as my breakfast at 8.15am... Then ate antibiotic as medicine for my throat infection... Then start work at 9.15am... Haha... Do packing and filing in the morning... Then rina say i finish faster then the previous one i did... Haha.. =) Then help to send eye drop to eye atrium... Then come back to finish my filing... Haha... Then finally finish my fri day and saturday filing before my target time... Then do sorting... Haha... It was dann sianz... Then do it with the Michelle she was dann sux... she was a backstabber... haha... Ask me to be fast i already very fast already as the number is jumping... Then today did not even communicate with her as i got a feeling she will back stab me... Haha... That is why i learn my lesson not to get bully by people... As she will be back stab by me too... Haha... Today the whole was thinking about furthering my studies in Monash University in Melbourne, Victoria Australia... Haiz... I am so tired.... I am also worry about my result which will be release in Mid January... Ahhhh.... Today was like thinking who will i miss if i further my studies in Australia... Haha... I will surely miss my dad cos he is the best daddy cos he will bring me out and buy me chocolate and ice cream crepe and he will treat me swensens as part of the destress... I will surely miss my small uncle as he bring me out on weekend hunting for the best and nice food... I will surely miss my naughty brother cos he always argue with me... I will surely miss my sister cos she is always beside me and accompany through thick and thin and she is always with me and we always go out shopping together... I will surely miss my grandparent cos they dote on me and gave me money to buy food and stuff... I will miss my fifth uncle cos he always gave me advice if i consider to further my studies in Australia... Haha... That is what i thought of today... haha =) Today thought of what my life would be when i become a medical student and what my life will be in Australia... I also thought of how to save the money for my education in Australia but at the moment do not need to think about it first as time come by then think about it most probably dad will help me... Haha... But now must think of my current situation as 'O' level result will be out next month wish my result will enable and qualify me to get into Yishun JC... Haha... Cant blog already as i am tired already...

2008-12-13T00:19:00.002+11:00

Nothing unusual everything was alright... Its just work work and work... Getting more sick now having flu and throat infection... Had been thinking for a whole day about my decision of going Melbourne Monash University to study medicine(MBBS) is the best choice and i will save money and work towards the goal if not enough money then i will take loan from school and pay back after grad from uni... haha... Today was fun... Chit chatting, laughing and playing...

2008-12-11T23:33:00.002+11:00

Today i made a new decision about my future but is still a thinking process... In 2 more years if i cannot get into local university to study medicine i will be going to Melbourne, Australia for my education i wanna go to Monash University to study medicine(MBBS)... Haha... Nothing new about my life today is just work work work plus sick plus tired... Haiz... Work for the sick of money for my education in Australia... Missing my friends in Australia and missing my friends who are having holiday in Europe or somewhere else... Miss you much and hope to go Australia to study medicine soon... Love ya...

2008-12-07T23:32:00.002+11:00

I hate to eat medicine but i have to take my medicine so i can recover fully from flu and throat infection.. Had been resting for three days already feel so tired... Have to take medicine on time... Now having headache hope to get well soon... Tomorrow is a holiday no need to go back pharmacy to work so good... Then daddy tomorrow bring me out for shopping so happy love to go out with daddy cos he will pamper me with tonne of chocolate from candy empire and cocoa tree... Haha... Love chocolate... Haha... Today my senior will be flying to Europe for 2 months but she promise to buy chocolate for my sister... such a nice jie jie... have to rest early so i can recover then tomorrow daddy will buy me ice ceam from azabu sabo... Yeah... Its has been 4 plus months since daddy bring me out to shop as i am busy preparing for my exam and finish off the homework my uncle gave me in order to prepare myself for my examination...

2008-12-07T18:39:00.002+11:00

I am so tired... Having headache and cough nonstop.... Ahhh hope i will recover fully tomorrow so i will have the energy to go work and another thing is i can go out with my sis this Saturday and i can eat ice cream at azabu sabo with sis... We can also go to "Left and Right Shop" to view the new design bag hope to buy one too... Haha... Haiz... I am sad, worry and sick... I am worry because i am scared what my result will turn out into... Really hope to get into JC... I am sad because i miss work and do not have a day pay and i am sick due to throat infection and flu...

2008-12-06T14:06:00.008+11:00

Sister gave me this pen she bought at "Left and Right Shop"
Bought this Hello Kitty Phone in the previous IT show at Suntec City at $160
Bought it because is nice and it got different colour keypad for a week and can change the color to the one you like..

My Medical Certificate for 2 days from 5 to 6 December..

I feel so tired... Haha... Have been working for two weeks plus already... Haha... Yesterday did not go work cos i went polyclinic to see doctor then he gave me two days medical leave haha... The doctor say i have throat infection and flu and he also tell me to drink more water then after that i ask him what will cause headache?? Then he told me some time stress or not enough sleep will cause headache and he advise me to have at least 8 hours of sleep to prevent headache... Haha after the consultation i went to the pharmacy to get my medicine now feeling better now can at least talk yesterday was having difficulties in talking and keep coughing... Haha... After visiting the polyclinic i call my supervisor in the pharmacy that i am on medical leave and she ask me what is the name of my doctor and the phone number of the clinic and the name of the clinic and the diagnosis... Then take bus back to granny house to eat my breakfast at a shop upstairs then went back to granny house to take medicine then use computer then after 1hours plus i feel so drowsy then i fell asleep till 6.18pm then wake up... Then from then on i did not eat fried food cos i choose something that is healthier to eat... I feel so sleepy and tired cos the place i work in is so hectic like hell haha... Then lucky i got MC so i rest from Friday all the way to Monday cos hari raya haha... Haha... Work work work... Now only can confirm to work till end of January but i told faye that i might extend... Haha... Work place let me know a lot of friends like yao ann, Samuel, Andrew, Dionna, Esther, Lin mei, Michelle, Derick, Shuling, Cecilia, chris and a lots of others... Had fun working with them... Haiz... One month till result out and i am worried cos i want to get into JC but do not know whether my all my subject will allow me to get into JC... Haha... If get into JC i have to apply for half day leave in January to buy uniform... Haha... Oh ya when i get my salary i want to buy a crash course medical book for pre medical entrance... I am still thinking "why am i aspire to be a doctor".... Haha... Now working hard and saving money for my Australia trip in June next year cos i going with my uncle, brother and sister... I am also saving money for my medical course fee cos is expensive to study medicine... Therefore i am saving money for my course fee and also for my trip to Australia... Yeah... Perth next year June and Taipei in December next year... Haha... Now have to study hard and study smart to achieve my goals and target i set for myself... Haha... All my friends encourage me to go JC if i want to study medicine therefore i am going.. That's all i am blogging for today and will try to find time to blog as i am very busy recently therefore i will only once a month or once every two months as now i am studying JC H2 mathematics... Haiz... When i go back to work it will be very hectic... Haha... Its been a long time since i go shopping... Must find one day to go cos i want to get a bag at Left and Right shop in marina square... I want to get new clothes for Chinese New Year as i would not have the time to go in January therefore i need to get it before Christmas cos i would be having my holiday... Haha... Yeah... Now must study hard so that i can get scholarship to study medicine in local university or overseas university... I have to study hard in JC and in the top few % in order to get PSC scholarship to study medicine therefore i would not have to pay anything and just pay for my hostel fee, food, books, clothes and others... I want to be like my cousin study medicine... Haha... If i really get into medical i hope i can pass the interview and essay test... Haha... If cannot study in Singapore i will choose Australia Monash University to study medicine or Mcgrill University in Canada to study but if i choose Australia is only 9 plus hours flight then i can visit my relative and family member during my long holiday but if i study in Canada i will not be coming back for visit as it is a 22 hours flight... haha... Now have to stop blogging already cos i want to rest already...

2008-11-22T17:19:00.002+11:00

I had been very busy recently as i am working as a temp staff in pharmacy learn lots of new thing and having fun... Make mistake with some other friend haha... learn cool stuff... getting too busy till i am tired as i do not have work today so i can rest.... didnt really go out for a long time as i am busy working and go home sleep cos too tired to do other things... Don knowshould i add tutoring job but since i am busy recently i wont add for now.... haha... yesterday injuried two finger when i was opening the box of glucosamine to take out the instruction booklet till now my finger still put plaster... Yeah.... thinking whether i should go japan next year for vacation anot... haha

2008-11-18T14:56:00.001+11:00

I want to suicide myself... my heart hurt and i felt that no one love me... why?????? i want to be a rebellious girl then i can seek attention..... haiz tmr work le just bury myself in.............

2008-11-16T13:34:00.003+11:00

Finally have time to rest... Thinking what i shall do... Hee... Wanna go buffet with my friend... Haha... Nice i shall not blog for this month already cos i will be very busy soon... Haha....

2008-11-13T23:55:00.003+11:00

Finally exam over... Haiz.... Today went for two jobs interview... Tomorrow early morning have to go home change clothes then go for interview at Tan Tock Seng Hospital Pharmacy lorz.... Haha cos i apply for night shift de from 10pm to 8am and $83 per night so have to work then only work for 3 days a week so other day i can work other job like coaching and giving reading and i can do my own stuff at my own timing... Heya... Too busy will try to blog soon.... Waiting for result cos it will only be out in mid January so can work till end January but if i go JC can only work till end jan but if i go poly can work till end march... Hope that i can go into JC to take H1 econ, H2 maths, H2 chemistry and H2 Biology lor... Haiz.... I really want to get into JC to pei my friend... Wish myself all the best for exams.... Haha now studying to recall all the stuff i learn... Hee...

2008-11-07T17:53:00.004+11:00

I have been too busy till i am too tired.... Is it just emotion or what... Did not do lots of things for months since i am busy for months... After next thursday gonna ask my friends out... Haiz... They cannot contact me because i switched off my phone for days and months... Wanna contact my tuition kids soon cos she is taking her GCSE next year that is why i want to give her some support.... Haha... I meet new friends last month at bedok town sec cos we were there to do our practical for chemistry then we had a chat with eachother... Then from there we contact eachother to ask about school stuff... Is quite fun actually... Thanks to them that i finally decide on some stuff that is undecidable... Now my main important thing is studies cos i want to study hard to get into National University of Singapore (Faculty of Medicine) and i want to stay in King Edward IV Hostel... Haiz that is my aim... Now busy sorting some stuff then will be free finally on next week... Yeah going buffet next week finally after 4 months plus of not going out of the house... Finally gonna finish the battle then i can finally have some rest on my own cos i have not had enough rest resting and researching on some medical stuff.... Finding some cure of preventing some diseases... Now i am getting more busy than the past and gege and jiejie want me to work hard towards the goal i am targetting... Now must study le... Will blog only after next week around 14 Nov cos before that i will be too busy with some personal stuff... I remember gege and jie jie tell me to jia you and study hard... Thanks gege and jiejie... I miss you all dearly hope to see you all soon in reunion... And Chinese New Year is in January so around 2 months plus we are going to meet or chat soon... Haiz all my friends left Singapore to go Perth, Adelaide and Melbourne... I miss you all dearly cos you all are my good pals... haiz... Saving money to go on a trip to Gold Goast to play with my families members... YEAH and more CHOCOLATES please.... Haiz... I am forbid from eating chocolate cos i am sick so i am refrain from it... Hope when i get well i will have lots of chocolates from daddy... Haha... NEXT TIME THEN BLOG... See ya...

2008-11-04T01:38:00.000+11:00

I have a nice day.. Busy day as daddy taught me chinese... I am sick since oct 20... haiz.. hope to blog soon as i am way too busy recently...

2008-10-18T16:39:00.001+11:00

its been a long time since i blog cos i am busy recently... haha... EXAM FEVER.... hehe.... it has also been a long time since i use com... haha... next time then blog now busy

2008-08-28T20:45:00.002+10:00

Its has been a long time since i blog as i am not staying at home currently therefore i will continue blogging after nov 13... I am very busy frequently cause i have class, tuition and i also have to prepare for exam... Haha... Haven start studying history yet so i have to jia you to study just hope to do well for my examination this year to get into a good JC... This few months i have been very busy studying.... Haha just hope to do well this year...

2008-07-06T02:30:00.002+10:00

I feel so stressed i feel that i cannot have self discipline to study... Haha starting from today i will spend most of my time to study already cos 3 more months to exam already... Ahhhhhhhhhhh.... This time i have to get into a local JC to study cos my friend say if i want to get into medicine i better get in by a JC road cos it will be easier... haha... but i don know who will support my decision... Haha... Now have to start studying cos i aiming to get into a JC that can allow me to get into medicine easier... Haha... But i going take Biology,Chemistry and Maths at H2 level. GP, econ and mother tongue at H1 level.... haha... Now have to start studying for my 'O' level already cos i want to get 6 distinction to get into the school i want and also get presents from daddy if i get 6 distinction for my this year 'O' level... But i want him to get me a laptop... Haha... Now should really be discipline le cos no time to waste liao... Haha...

2008-06-29T02:18:00.003+10:00

I am half dead... My leg pain like hell... Haha... Have to work in taka level 5 on 28 and 29 June... Which end tomorrow... Haha.... Quite fun... My foot hurts... Haha... After this week i have to focus on my studies already so this is the last week i working except for VE cos i only go down when there's a need.. Haha.. Study... Monday have to start on chemistry, physics and add maths or e maths... Haha... Now it's time to reviswe for exam... And one and a half months before exam then i start doing my TYS year by year paper... Haha... Now have to go sleep already cos tomorrow have to wake up quite early for work but its sunday... Ahhh now is already next day cos is 00.23am already... Will blog again in nov as i will be quite busy recently till mid of NOV... EXAM EXAM EXAM.... AHHHHHHHHHHH... EXAMINATION.... Must not be nervous and must be self prepare and full prepare for it this is what i learn from last year and i learn from my mistake as i don want to revise in the last minutes so i decided to start early and i decided to start 3.5 months before the exam commences... Yewah... Sleepy now got to go =)

2008-06-24T01:15:00.001+10:00

Sick of it already...Next time don ask me to do your thing... Daddy don care abt me le.... so sian... Everything i do i don need to report to him haiz its a sense of freedom... YEAH...

2008-06-21T04:05:00.002+10:00

Hehe... Got some time to blog... Haiz... No primary school class gathering le as now my only closest friends is jia jun kor kor, jessica soh, jessica khong and angeline... Haiz... Cos of the stupid quarrel like two years le lucky kor kor also know.... Haha... Will find time to blog as i am busy recently...

2008-06-18T02:09:00.003+10:00

I hate my lives... WHY I AM NOT BORE IN A RICH FAMILY..... I hate my lives so much that i want to commit suicide at times.... I have to work inorder to go to australia but i have to work very long so that i can get the money i want why.... I just hate myself.... Why i am in a rich family then i can go overseas very soon....... I hate to cry but i have shed alot of tear in this family le... I want to leave for australia soon.... Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... I really hate myself.... will this dream come true after my poly... I want to find a rich boyfriend so i don have to worry much.... Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...... My live suck..... Fucker mother her name is LEE YEN HONG.. she is a dann fucker.... Like to put oil on the fire................ My dad is also the same everyday quarrel with him because of her..... I hate her... I want to leave this house next year i want to stay near to school than come back home to see her dann fucking face....

2008-06-17T00:52:00.003+10:00

I hate my mother... Fuck her mother asshole la... Say me go be a prostitute... She is a dann fucker.... I richer than her then she say i go out to be a hooker... Haiz.... Dad is also the same...... I will be going australia soon so i wont have to quarrel with her again.... Yeah... Melbourne is the best place to hide from my parent as i can go there to study... I want to go with sis haiz... Go australia for six years.... Haha... I want to leave as fast as possible... I am in love.... when can i find my true love?? Haiz but now studies is my top prority... Yeah.. parent are the same... My lives is different from others as i have to go through hardship that others no need.... I have to see my parent shit face... Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... I hate my lives somtime feel like ending soon but i not that stupid to end my lives... Haiz... Just want to do things my way... I choose to believe or not is my business so i will see how first... I want to get a laptop in the next IT show... Haha i want my sony laptop... Ahhhhh... But i wont be so stupid to use com all the time as i need to study for my exam already... haha.... I want more chocolate... haha... I want more holland and aussie chocolate... Tonight have to burn midnight oil to finish studying and doing my english homework...

2008-06-12T20:41:00.003+10:00

Receive my online shopping clothes haha... Tomorrow will receive another again... Yeah... Still undecided whether i will be going australia to study... Haiz... Have to do alots of stuff before going haha... Yeah.... Going melbourne there to study taylor collge Monash university foundation year... Haha... But will be working there as my money only allow me to study there for one year.... haha my course start end of jan to Nov so will be back in singapore next year nov... Then next year will be the first year that i will be celebrating my chinese new year alone without my families and relative but on chinese new year i will be chatting with my sis through webcam... Haiz.... Sis cant come with me... But she will help me keep my ang pao money.... If go australia le i will study hard and play hard cos aus is less stressful than singapore this is what my xue jie told me as she is studying in perth, aus now... Haha but most of my friend in perth so sad lor... Haiz.... Can eat tonne of chocolate too cos most of my favourite chocolate are from australia... Haha and melbourne is my favourite place.... Haha.... I am in love then maybe holiday i will go perth to visit my xue jie and friends... Haha... But my relative will ask my sis why i go alone de lor... Haha... One of my aim is to avoid families questioning and another is for a better future... Haha.... Jia you de liao lor.... I want to learn aussie language therefore aus is my first choice if i want to go overseas to further my studies.... I want to go with my sister to australia... I like the feeling of going to school together, coming back from school together and also sharing the same hostel room.... Miss sis... If i go there i have to choose english plus four elective cos my course in january so i choose english, maths, physics, chemistry and biology.... Haha...

2008-06-11T23:25:00.001+10:00

Finally have the money to go Australia to study for one year but haven discuss with daddy yet cos dad wont allow me to go overseas to study although i am 19 liao.... Ahhhhh... I really want to go Melbourne to study but i have the money but i do not have permission from daddy whether i can go anot.... Haiz.... Dead halfway... But if i go mean i have to leave my loves one and friends behind... Ahhhh....

2008-06-11T03:40:00.003+10:00

Had been a busy week for me... Ahhhhh... Daddy bought for me TYS paper by paper de... Haha quite good... Ahhh... Haven really touch on my revision and assignment for the past two weeks... Haha... Had been very busy as i have to do tonne of recruitment... Ahhh... receive my clothes from online shopping its a blouse... Receive it yesterday then wear for my mum to see... It just fit but mummy say i look very mature as i look like those twenty plus years old work in office de.... Haha... This week and next week have to try to do my revision le as no time to play le although busy like mad... Haha...Ahhh... Friday have to go do survey but lucky josephine will be helping me haha... Thanks her alot... haha... Yeah tomorrow i will receive another package of clothes from online shopping haha... Now i need lots of blouse and executive wear but all i like de is short sleeve de as now is summer season as if i want long sleeve de have to wait till winter or authum season... Ahhh... Hope this year i will study extreme hard so that i can get into the course i want and so that i can enjoy my holiday trip to Taiwan (Taipei)with my uncle as i cant go with my friend... But i got one of my ex-neighbour who is a taiwanese so he can bring me around... Haha... Then i will go there but tonne of executive wear clothing as i go there is winter so got long sleeve de... Haha... Things in taiwan is cheaper than in singapore so i can go there shop happily and don need to worry about my result so there is 5 months plus of bitter and one months plus of sweetness cos sweetness normally come after bitter.... Yeah... So now have to be more discipline and focus on my studies and after all those dann exam its time to relax... Now my aim is to focus on my studies so i wont be blogging anytime sooner and i wont be online too... I will blog and online after all my exam in Nov... As i promise my dad i have to get six distinction in my L1R5 subjects so he will get me a rolex star watch that cost $7000 plus dollars haha but just joking only la actually want him to get me a laptop... Haha... So now must jia you in my career and my studies cos i want to prove to my dad that i can excel in both my studies and my career in venture era as now i only left like 1989 LV points to hit my marketing executive so i must jia you cos i don want to let my dad look down on me and i want to prove to him that i can succeed in venture era.... Haha... It will be a long time for me to update my blog as i will be busy dealing with studies, exam, survey(for recruitment) and to hit my position by this month. As i have to hit my Business manager by this year but actually i aim for marketing manager but Mr miao hua say its easily to hit Business manager as now got discount in the points. which i can save 18000 points if i hit my Business manager. But i am aiming for my marketing manager this month and probably or marketing manager or business manager by this year aim but i hopefully aim to be a business manager by this year end lor.... Wah its a long time iblog this long liao... Miss ya... I will miss blogging... Haha... Its late liao... Its almost 2am le.... gonna sleep liao... Aiming after exam to go taiwan for my shopping spree.....

2008-06-07T20:40:00.005+10:00

Starting from 9 June 2008 i wont be blogging till 13 Nov 2008 as it is my study week... Haiz as i wont be online so often... Yeah did online shopping for clothing... Haha... Tired... After one day of burning midnight oil my eye hurt so from now onwards i wont be burning midnight and finish my work on time so that i can hand up to my teacher... Haha... Going be busy soon.... I like this clothes... Hope to buy it by tuesday cos i will only get my pay cheque on tuesday after 2pm... So yeah... New addition of clothing... After exam need to get more executive wear from Singapore and Taiwan but mostly in taiwan as all the clothes i bought are ship from taiwan... Haha... Yeah... My favourite is JSS and Joyce shop and maple syrup...

2008-06-05T05:02:00.002+10:00

Yeah 3.03 am yeah... Finally finish one of my compre now left 3 compre, 1 compo and 2 reflection... Haha... Still got 7 hours or exact around 6 hours plus had to meet my manager i think i am able to finish three more compre before meeting him... Haha... Yeah... I drank coffee with chocolate therefore i am wide awake till now... Its give me energy yeah still left 1k plus i hit my ME news update... Haha... I must jia you... First time in my lives i am so pathetic as i have to burn midnight as my work is due on fri... haha...

2008-06-05T01:45:00.002+10:00

Yeah... Now i am on leave from VE but still got call come in from my HP so busy answering call... Haha... Wont be blogging for months le as i will be getting busy le as i hve lots of commitment that i have to finish... I am happy... haha... Today have to burn midnight oil as i have to finish tonne of stuff today which include my 4 comprehension and one compo and 2 reflection... Haha... Jis you.... Oh ya left 2 king to hit my Marketing executive... Haha lucky my god bro say he will help me settle one and my other friend say he will settle one... Oh ya fri have SA... haha... Lucky god bro is there... My aim is to hit marketing manager by ths year so me and didi must jia you cos he also have the same aim as me... So we must both jia you... Now must study hard le cos i hate dad nagging as me... Haha... Now must study hard so i can enjoy my dec taipei trip with my best buddy... Haha... It's time for explorer after examination... Yeah... Today saw another news NP another grad gain direct entry to study medicine in NUs... Yeah its the third grad le... Jia you.... Haha... But happen to be all guys... hope there will be girls... Haha... I hope i can study medicine in the future cos i told my dad i want to be a "法医" so must jia you and study hard as i have goal for my own lives. As i want to be a part time tutor, relief teacher and work in VE next year as i want to proof to daddy that i can earn 5 digit payroll a month in VE as he don allow me to work in VE as i always goes home around 1am to 1.30am... Haha... Jia you... I also hope josephine parent will understand why she want to work in VE as she has the same goal as me... Haha... Jia you bah... Didi going army soon so hope he can hit his target soon too... Jia you josephine and gandidi... Haha i need to find 3 more people to help me so i also have to jia you as i will be getting busier each day... Haha... My workload is getting more and more as exam is getting nearer as my aim is to do past ten year exam year by year paper two months before the exam after i finish my revision... Now have to do the topic by topic and learn from my mistake and not do the wrng thing again... Haha... As i know jospephine and my didi and my friends will support me de... Now have to study for all my subjects le have to work hard le and not be like last year so playful le... Now have to be lock inside the house haha... Ok have to do my others stuff le cant blog le.... Will continue blogging after i finish my exam which is about 5 months plus away... haha...

2008-05-29T14:08:00.003+10:00

Yesterday left VE very early i reach home around 7.30pm cos dad ground me... Haha... Yesterday teacher appt didnt close but i learn from my mistake i should talk more so i can close the deal to hit my ME position fast... Next week i got another teacher appt... Haha... Must work hard and study hard so that i can proof to my dad that i can manage my time well... Hee today went online buy blouse saw this blouse quite nice... Haha.... Need more executive wear... So have to buy a few executive wear... Didnt have time to blog as i am too busy with my own stuff...

2008-05-27T14:37:00.002+10:00

Yeah... Yesterday went home from VE very early as dad ground me and keep calling me to go home... Ahhh... How should i tell my dad i enjoy working in VE... Ahhhh.... Then got one recruitment at 1.30pm... Then 7pm recruitment cancel as my friend got exam... Haiz... Then yesterday go down take my bag then go take lift then saw mr joel so we chat till the lift reach level one we come out from the lift then still chat lor then he say proof to my daddy i can earn 5 digit income every month so he will allow me to work in VE... Haiz... Yesterday fell down then hurt my knee.... Ahhhh... So sick... Haha... Today have to go down to VE for my recruitment at 3pm but today have to go home early again... Haiz... This few day will be quite busy so maybe it will take month for me to blog...

2008-05-21T10:50:00.002+10:00

Yeah... Its a new day for me... Haha... My friend got grounded at home lor.... I didnt.... I have to clinch two more king size magnetic therapy before i can promote to marketing executive... Haiz... Tiring... Next week got appointment lorz... Haha....

2008-05-19T13:38:00.002+10:00

Yeah its vesak day but i have tuition from 2pm onwards till night time as yeaterday i didnt go for tuition as i have some stuff... So today have tuition for maths.... Ahhhhh.... Haiz... Its a sad day as my dad make me sad... I hate him cos he don understand me... Ahhhh.... Now have to study.... Haha... Tuition for whol day... Haiz....

2008-05-18T03:05:00.002+10:00

Today was fun went to mother's day tea party... till 6pm then after that went basement to wait for my manager then just chat with josephine.... Then after that my manager came down to basement around 7pm then teach my friend phone technique.... Then after that my manager role play with my friend then after that i role play with my friend then quite cool... then role play till 8pm then after that i make a call to my friend for recruitment then i leave the company at 8.30pm as i have tuition at 9pm... Ahhhh then tuition only did half question cos no time to do... Haiz.... Then now got 2 Add maths h/w, 1 narrative writing, 3 comprehension, 1 english activity paragraph writing on descriptive and 1 chemistry h/w... Ahhh... STRESSED cos have to complete it before thurs so i only have 4 days to finish all my homework... ISIT possible i think it is if i have the time to do it i can finish it and i must finish it before wednesday that is my goal... Haha thurs chemistry tuition... LORZ....

2008-05-16T16:23:00.002+10:00

Funny... Haha... My sis told me that my dad thought i came home later than me cos my sis told my dad that he was the last one that came home... Haha then my sis told him that i was in my room sleeping haha...Ahhhhhh.... This few weeks i am quite stressed... Cause i have to finish my three compre, one compo, one add maths and one chemistry... Haiz... So i am quite stress lor.... Haiz.... Have to finish them one week before chinese a 'O' level as i still have some commitment on therefore i have to clear as much work as possible... As i am doing recruitment for my organisation therefore i have to finish the work i had on hand... If cant finish i have more work coming in... haha...

2008-05-13T13:58:00.002+10:00

Yeah.... Its the start of the week but i am stressing because of recruitment.... Ahhhh.... Haiz..... This week have to really very hardworking le because i need to get the best result my dad want and will be happy... Now have to really concentrate le cannot come home late le... I now grounded because i reach home at 1 plus in the morning now dad want me to reach home before 9pm... haha so just listen to him lor...

2008-05-06T03:44:00.002+10:00

Yeah... Reach home at 1.15am... Just finishing showering and eating.... Haha... Now is already 1.45am... Haha... Stay late at office because got night training but it end at 12.15am... Then wait for mr miao hua till 12.33am cos he stay opposite my house.. Then me, mr miao hua, mr zhi tao, ms lixia, mr hong boon and another person walk to the bus stop cos last bus for bus 21 is 12.40am.... Then mr miao hua, mr zhi hao, ms lixia, me and another person took bus 21 so we shake hand with mr hong boon... Then me and ms lixia chat on the bus till she alight cos she alight first then we shake her hand... Then mr zhi tao alight we also shake his hand and another person alight then i and mr miao hua shake the hand of the person then mr miao hua sit next to me and chat with me till we alight at the nissan there... Then from bus stop we walk to nissan showcase there outside to view car... Haha.... Then he walk with me till we reach home... But we chat on the way cos he is my upline.... Haha... But quite fun lah.... Tomorrow he will accompany me to go my goddad company cos need to do some paperwork... Thanks my goddad for helping me to clinch my deal and i am a sales executive now only left 4900 points to marketing executive and i must hit marketing executive by end of May before i take a long vacation till mid November cos have to study for my examination already... I will pass my organisation to mr miao hua and he will help me take care... Next month i have to go bangkok already cos my uncle go there to teach his student tuition and he ask me to tag along... He is teaching e-maths there and he will be touching on others school paper so he ask me to go as it will also benefit me... The schedule is morning and afternoon is sightseeing and shopping... Night is study... Haiz.... Must work hard le.... For my dad, myself and my grandparent this time i must make it and get into the course i want which is BIOMEDICAL LABORATORY TECHNOLOGY or BIOMEDICAL SCIENCE..... Now almost 2 am already... Tomorrow morning have to wake up early for breakfast cos me and sis going for breakfast in mac.... Hee this friday have to go shopping for more collar shirt.... YEAH... the reason is so that i can put badges on the collar....

2008-05-03T15:35:00.002+10:00

Yeah its saturday but having headache... Yesterday went for english tuition teacher give lots of homework... 3 Comprehension, 8 vocabulary have to memorise, have to do homework from just write and have to do as many as possible... Ahhhh.... Have to do correction also... Oh my god have to do so many stuff.... Today have e-maths tuition... Ahhhh... Have to study study for my triple science also.....

2008-05-02T04:04:00.003+10:00

Yeah Now is 2 plus in the morning i am still awake... Haha... Labour day... Nothing as usual... Manager call me at midnight and told me to meet him in the office tomorrow then i told him i will reach around 2pm as i am going ubi to register for my theory exam... Haha then he told me saturday there is an outing at sentosa then he say i can join them then leave halfway lorz... Hehe that is fun and cool... Hetic day.... Yeah... Have to start studying for exam already cos is May already left 5 more months to exam already... Jia you and must stay focus...

2008-04-30T18:26:00.002+10:00

YEAH... Today is wednesday... Haha today is my last day of work and i am working on the afternoon shift as i am still not feeling well cos just came back from leave as i am down with flu for the past few days... Haha now my throat still pain... Hehe... Yeah... Tonight have to call my manager to talk to him what my dad told me... Hehe... Although i am sad when he scold me yesterday but at night he is ok and not angry and my leg pain he help me to rub using medicated oil... Haha... My manager say i use ten hours to earn 1000 plus dollars and my journey is smoother than others... Hehe... But i don think so... Hha left few thousands points to ME already... Must jia you...

2008-04-30T00:54:00.003+10:00

Today was an unlucky day... But quite ok cos i today call mrs anna lim to fixed appointment with her then she say she will be free on the 12th May... Then she ask me to look for her in school after 3pm then i say okay... Haha today cried in front of my manager cos i got scolded by my dad cos he say he don care what time i will be home... Then my manager an wei me cos he say i must pass by this barrier then i can be success then today mr zhi hao and mr miao hua told me that they never see someone journey as smooth as mine that can jump and promote so fast as me but i still need 3000 plus to 5000 plus to jump to ME... Cos they say they met up and down before climbing to marketing manager.... Perseverance is a way to success... Yeah jia you like what my manager say he will back me up and help me close my deal and i have to do my best in my B role... Yeah...

2008-04-29T13:56:00.003+10:00

Yesterday appointment did not clinch but i can do follow up on my neighbour... Yesterday was at my neighbour house from 9.15pm to 11.20pm then leave... We chat then i show them some demo... Then after that Manager give me a debreif and he say i did well in my B role... Haha... Hehe.... Cause the manager is my presenter for yesterday... Hehe... Have fun... AHHH... Haha hope i can get to Marketing executive very fast but left one day how can i do it... Ahhhh... Left 5077points to Marketing executive.... Haiz...

2008-04-28T18:06:00.002+10:00

Yeah just fix an appointment with my neighbour... Yeah... Then i went to call my manager and he say "I am the girl" Haha and he say he will find a presenter for me... Yeah is this the way to success or... Althoug i am stress and tired and still on Medical leave but i will still continue to work hard and strive harder... Yeah... That's great as my neighbour told me she will be free at around 9pm... Hehe... Yeah... I am trying to clinch my deal as fast as i can but i also must not be afraid of rejection so i told that my neighbour i have some sample on hand and need her to give me some feedback... Haha... Yeah finally done here... My aim for now is to climb as fast as i can to Marketing executive and marketing manager before i am on leave... But business manager is my aim by this year end...

2008-04-27T15:02:00.002+10:00

Manager msg me and say thurs is too late to meet my dad cos i have to fight for my ME by end of this months ahhh.... Haizzzz..... I am being pressurise in between work and studies... Haiz... LIFE SUX..... But work hard in studies more than work bah... Since is just a part time job for me...

2008-04-27T14:49:00.002+10:00

Still left two queen size magentic therapy and a few small item then i can hit my Marketing executive fast... AHHHHHH.... I feel so pressure... Have to study and work... Later go ask my neighbour will she be free tomorrow evening so i can fix appointment with her.... Actually wanna ask my dad friends so i can promote faster but my dad don't believe me... I feel so sick la... Dad don believe in the product... Oh shit.... Why cant he believe cos we have alot of document to prove that the product is promising... Ahhhhhhhhhh... Wants to help his friend to lower his blood pressure, in the end get scolded by my daddy... Wanna cry out all the pain but i promise myself that i need to be strong for myself.... Ahhhhh... Tear dropping ahhh this is the voice to voice out my opinion... Ahhhh... I only left 5077 points to ME cos i already got few thousands plus point from my goddad so i must jia you i will try to fix an appointment on thurs for my dad to meet my manager... Ahh.... Having headache but still have to study but stay away from maths tomorrow cos my head going to burst from all the stress from work... Now i gonna become crazy.... Whay had got into me.... I just want to climb as fast as possible before i took a break from work starting the end of first week of JUNE by then i have to jump to Marketing Manager so i can recruit people and get a higher payroll bah.... Ahhhh... Now must jia you although i can always seek help from my manager but cant always depend on him cos i also need to be independent for myself... Haha....

2008-04-26T03:15:00.002+10:00

Came back home at 12.55am... haha get scolded again cos forgot to call dad... Haha yeah i close three deal with my goddad... Yeah... Now an SE going to fight for my ME... Then my manager say my market i can at least go up to ME or MM quite fast but it doesnt depend on me only it depend on my manager too cos he is my back up whenevr i have problem like going home late he will say he will talk to my dad... Haha... Jia you lucky my goddad support me if not i don know what i gonna do but now put my heart and soul in my studies and my part time business...YEAH... Hi5 to my best buddy cos she also promote together with me she promote to SE le but i am halfway to ME and she also the same hope my godmum will introduce people to me so i can earn more... Haha... YEAH... Together got sales appointment with my godmummy before going for tuition ahya e maths tuition hope shu shu will not say i am smart cos i want to be the best... Haha

2008-04-25T18:25:00.001+10:00

Yeah finished my round already... Sis lining up for me in starbuck so now finish my billing haha... Still sick cos having running nose and sore throat but still can finish my round in time... Haha... Dann fun.... Haha... Today's going be a busy day for me... Haha...

2008-04-25T13:51:00.002+10:00

Today will be a busy day for me... Just came back from my morning round hehe... Today will be busy cos after work go buy starbuck then after go down to venture era for briefing then after that go to goddaddy office to meet him to come company together to make payment then at night from 9pm to 10.30pm there will be junior distributor talk by the management team lor... Ahhh... Go home late again but tomorrow got work lol....

2008-04-24T15:51:00.004+10:00

Today on Mc cos morning wake up not feeling well cos throat hurt like hell and my back and leg ache and i am having a headache and slight fever... But tonight got english tuition so cant skip... Haha lucky i hand up my english homework already hehe... Yeah today is my last lesson for english at the bishan branch then going change to bugis branch starting next week so the day also change it is on friday haha but its start early so can go home finish thing early... The time start at 5.45pm and end at 7.45pm haha 2 hours but dann cool.... The teacher are cool.... Willing to teach me and help me if i don't know and can ask them question if i am in doubt... Haha... It has been weeks since i last go for my physics and chemistry classes... Haha cos my uncle teach me physics and chemistry and he teach better than the teacher lorz... Today didnt go work... Thanks to joanne for helping me... Haha... YEAH... Tomorrow is friday... Starbuck time.... Haha... Gonna buy tonne of thing to eat and drink.... Yeah yesterday a medical student talk to me he is a guy haha he is 23 years old then the patient thought we are together then we say no lah we are not together... He ask me how i put my lead so i just tell him where i position my lead lor... Haha its a great experience talking to him cos it make me realise that i also want to study medicine haha but now must take one step at a time... Now have to do very well for my 'O' level then get into ngee ann poly biomedical laboratory technology or Singapore poly Biomedical science(medical technology) Then hope my GPA can get at least 3.958 lorz then go apply to study medicine either singapore or overseas... Haha... Even in poly i also teach tuition and work as sales since is a part time job but sioll most of the time i will use it to do self study and revision cos there is two examination one in august or october and another one in febuary... So have to study hard.... Haha... Cos major exam but now work hard for 'O'level.... Jia you...

2008-04-24T00:31:00.003+10:00

Tomorrow have to call my goddad again before my english tuition at bishan cos have to confirm with goddaddy how many people coming for the bai mai and what time he will reach then after my tuition have to call my manager if not he will call me tonne of time... Haha... Have been so busy everyday and just now my phone ring from 8.30pm to 10 plus lorz... Like businessman like that... Cos everyday my manager will call me so everyday answer phone call so wonder how much my handphone bill will cost but i got free incoming call all day just wondering outgoing call cos very frequently use my phone to call client mah... haha this friday ttsh starbuck 50% off so have to help maxine, jacqueline and myself to buy then i bring down to Venture era for maxine cos i going down to the company on friday cos my goddaddy coming down to make payment and bai mai therefore from friday onwards i will be promoted to Sales Executive haha three more steps to BM cos still left marketing executive, marketing manager and business manager then i can get my cars already... Hehe... I already make my first step already so not cannot give up cos if you are focus and determined to do it, you will succeed... Perseverance is a way to success.... "Jia you" like what my manager say....

2008-04-23T14:33:00.002+10:00

Finish my morning round hehe 20 patients... Hehe tonight have to call goddaddy to confirm with him what time he is coming down on friday or saturday... Haha... Hope the deal can be close on friday cos once he swipe the card the deal is consider close... Haha... Hope will have more deal coming in and i can promote to ME or MM before i take a long leave from second week of June to 13 of november... Haiz... Hope they use the products they will think is good and they will spread positive thoughts around cos it is to benefit people... Haiz... Haha

2008-04-23T01:23:00.003+10:00

Yeah... Haha close a deal le so promote to SE but still not confirm cos have to wait till my goddaddy go down to make payment hehe... Haha... Maxine congrate me for closing my deal and she say congrate me for closing my deal in 2 appointment but still i got tonne of phone rejection... Haha... My manager call me a few times and he say good job... Haha... I not sure why lorz.... But hope can climb to ME soon so have to clinch more deal haha... Ahhhh but who should i find hope my godmummy will refer people to me and my friends too... Haiz... Friday have to go down to venture era... Haha...

2008-04-22T19:07:00.002+10:00

Today is just tuesday and i am sick... Yesterday didnt go down to VE cos sick so cant go down... Haha... Then today took a leave in the morning the today work noon shift... haha just six patients for my afternoon round then the rest of the time just slack and do nothing... After finishing my round call my last year chemistry teacher for sales appointment, then kana get rejected cos he say he work in this field before... But have to get use of rejection... Haha... Tonight have to call my goddaddy to confirm with him the deal... Ahhh wonder what will happen... Just hope that it will be a success lor and hope that he will get one king and one queen size magnetic therapy haha then i can promote liao... Just halfway to Marketing executive if i close the deal... But still scared... Hee... My manager want me to call him first before i make a call to my goddaddy... Haha... My godmummy sound so interested but don't know about my goddaddy... Haha... Hehe... Cool just hope that my manager can promote to Business manager soon cos he say if he promote he can drive me home cos he stay opposite of my house... Hehe... Boring day but fun...

2008-04-21T00:06:00.002+10:00

Haha.. Appointment quite ok over at my godmum there haha... Then haven't close deal yet mah so have to call her on tues to confirm again haha... But don't know whether will close anot cos she say if good then she will refer people to me if she try liao... Haha... But cant be le guan cos something will happen and don be too over confident haha... Next will try to call my three teacher to ask them to buy haha...

2008-04-20T10:55:00.001+10:00

yeah later got two appointment... i am feeling dann nervous lor but my manager say i can run to him for back up haha... so i have back up lor... hehe... I hope is a success cos i got family appointment and another one is friend de appointment.... Haha

2008-04-20T02:09:00.002+10:00

Yeah another day is over... As usual BUSY lorz... Haha went for appointment lor not successful cos got rejection haha but i will strive to try harder de... Haha... Then called my godfather and fifth uncle to fixed appointment haha... But i call my teacher then i told them that i am doing business and ask if they interested and i can show them my sample lorz... My teacher are great lor i called one and he is in class so i will call him tomorrow and my another teacher i will also call him tomorrow so maybe can fixed all the appointment so i can promote to SE or ME as fast as possible... But my godfather say he will support me so maybe he will buy from me... Haha... Then my manager mr miao hua will be following me for my appointment tomorrow... Terrible thing happen today when coming down from lift daddy in the lift with my manager oh shit so funny ten he ask me why i not home by this time??? Haha... He thought what me and manager doing mah then i say business lor... But my dad hate ppl wearing long sleeve shirt with tie and long pants... Ahhhhhhhhhhhh.... So sick lor... Dann don know what to say lah... As if something will happen to me but infact i learn lots of things from my manager cause he is my back up... Haha...:)

2008-04-18T14:10:00.003+10:00

Now is 12.11nn... Haha now at work dann sianz... Hehe...Now so busy... Can work to death haha later evening still have to go down to venture era although i am still tired haha... But ok lah cos tomorrow no need to work so just go down lor... Still got two more weeks till my last day in Tan tock seng hospital... Haha... Now with Mr miao hua, tutor at chec, tutor at distinction tutorial school, Xiao shu and my collegue to tutor me in my studies, i am sure that i will do them proud and get into my favourite course which is Biomedical Laboratory in Ngee Ann Poly or Biomedical Science(medical technology) in Singapore poly but the course objective is to find cure to the disease of the patient and save live...... Haha... Now must study hard already cos i must not let them down and those who care for me down and i must win the bet that i have with my dad cos i want a treat to swensen... Jacqueline fang wo fei ji... So bad lor... Second time already...

2008-04-18T00:44:00.002+10:00

Today went for english tuition after work... Quite cool then the teacher thought that i am not local, she say i look like korean... Then i laugh and tell her that i am a local... Oh tomorrow have to go down to venture era... Haha... Left with add maths and e maths homework haven't finish yet... So have to finish by tomorrow... Bet with daddy have to get at least two ace for 'O' level if not have to give him $1000 but if i win a got a treat to Swensen... Haha But i have to get all ace cos the course i want to get in require me to get all Ace... With Mr miao hua, xiao shu, my tutor and my collegue by my side to tutor me i will sure get all 'A1' for my 'O' level so that i will not let them down... Hehe

2008-04-17T01:37:00.002+10:00

Yeah done my english homework already... Haha its compo... Hehe... Finished it early cos use computer to type my compo... Hehe... Now only left with e and add maths haven't do yet... So sick... Now my leg hurt... Ahhhhhhhh... limping when i am walking... haha... Hehe... Now really have to work hard already... Just now my manager called me and chat with me... Quite good he ask how have i been and how i cope with my studies.... I told him that i am stressed out that he told me he had 5 distinction for 'O' level so he can teach me in physics and chemistry... Haha...

2008-04-16T10:33:00.002+10:00

Parent don't believe i can do it... My parent don't support me in whatever i do.... I really hate them cause i really want to work in venture era... Why they don't understand me.... I really cant stand it already... I am really very stressed... In my family i feel that i am very pressurise cos i really want to work in venture era and achieve my car incentive but my dad and mum will say the negative things about the jobs... I going mad soon cos dad don't support me... He support me at first but now he don't support me anymore i really hate them.... Ahhhhhhhh.....

2008-04-15T22:29:00.002+10:00

Today skipped chemistry tuiion as my leg still hurt from yesterday shoes... Ahhhh... Today busy busy busy... I hate today... I rush like mad like that Ahhhh... Haven finished my english essay leh... Have to finish by tomorrow haha.... Now monday, friday, saturday and sunday night work at venture era... Tuesday, wednesday,thursday, saturday and sunday got tuition... Then monday to friday morning work at Tan tock seng... But from may onwards is monday night, thursday night, saturday morning and noon and sunday morning and noon work in venture era... Tuesday, wednesday and friday, saturday late afternoon and sunday late afternoon have tuition... haiz... STRESSED...

2008-04-15T22:12:00.002+10:00

14.04.2008

Dress in long sleeve blouse and black skirt for seminar... After seminar went for group out with mr zhi hao, mr miao hua, bradon, maxine, cynthia boon and another lady.... Haha... Then the group out at around 11.05pm cos we share what is our thoughts and feeling after the seminar... Haha... But my thought and feeling will be maybe next time i will be a lady car incentive awars winner... haha... Want to have my dream car so can drive to school while others student take bus or train to school... haha... Then after that went for supper at geylang serai prata shop... Haha... Eat and talk then 12.40am then leave... Then went to pay my bill then receive a call from daddy at 12.45am he say "Now what time already, still don't want to go home and ask me to have self control over the time don't be home late and so for lah... Then i tell him that i going back now cos mr miao hua, my manager stay opposite my home only so wait for him lor... He same age as me but older than me by two months plus... Then dad hang up the phone..." Then we rush to the bus stop to catch our last bus but can't run cos i wear high heel... Haha... Then when we reach there my last bus pass by... Ahhhh... Then me, mr miao hua, mr zhi hao, miss lixia, maxine and perline went to run after the bus 51 since me and mr miao hua bus 21 miss le.... Then take till ubi there stop... Then me and mr miao hua predict that we won't catch the bus 65 either so we share a cab home since he stay opposite me then we chat alot in the cab and he motivate me to strive harder inorder to climb higher and inorder to get my dream car... haha... the cab fare is share among the both of us so quit cheap although got midnight surchage so we each only pay $4... haha....

2008-04-14T13:59:00.002+10:00

Today went to work as usual... But today is a tiring day for me... I just come back from my morning round haha... At night got seminar then have to wear till very formal... Haha executive wear... White blouse, black skirt and high heel... Hehe... Then i think midnight reach home again cos work on monday, thurs or fri, saturday and sunday for my second jobs... SALES... Haha... Me and maxine aim is to get to Business manager by this year so that we can have our dream car... Haha... Reach home then blog now have to work although i am very tired too... hee... Ahhhh.... Tuesday, wednesday and thurs have tuition for this week...

2008-04-12T14:16:00.002+10:00

Yeah its saturday... Haha just complete my maths homework during work time cos i finish early... Haha... Only can blog at work place cos home internet down haiz... sianz la... Later have to go for my business training cos yesterday is heritage tour... Haha yesterday 12.15am then reach home cos of heritage tours then we like mad shout in the middle of the road... haha... Then i shout my aim is to get to the position of marketing manager by this year but actually i aim for business manager by the end of this year cos i want my dream car which is BMW series 7... Now i am still sales agent... After sales agent is sales executive then after that is marketing executive then after that is marketing manager then after that is business manager then is business group manager then EVM and up la... But for now my aim is to get to business manager by end of this year... i will try to find time to blog... for now i have to go cos off work already but i still have my second job training on sales... Jia you...

2008-04-11T14:33:00.002+10:00

Yeah.. Its friday... Too bad tomorrow also have to work... Haha... On 2 days MC today just got back to work... Haha... Still having sore throat but have to bear with it... After work got Business to do at venture era... Manager give me training haha... So eat dinner outside and will be home late also... Haha... Hope i can climb to business manager before next year chinese new year eve then can wear black jacket and show to my godfather that i don't need to depend on my daddy i also can climb up to business manager and i can also earn money for my dad to spend... I want to prove to them that i can do it... For the sake of finacial freedom, can go australia to study, parents can retire within five years i will try my best to earn at least 5 digit number if i before business manager before next year chinese new year... I will prove to them that i can do it and i don't need to depend on daddy for money then i still have money coming in and i can have car and tonne of money to save for my australia or UK university education fee for medical course... Haha... Now have to finish my work first... haha... I don't think i will blog everyday cos no time cos i have to do business and study but i will try to blog once in awhile... Haha... Today wear formal for my business training... haha so later have to change to formal wear... Today is my second training... Yeah... After that then appointment... Haha... Mean can earn money through sales le... Now is sales agent then if earn 1000 points value then will be promote to Sales executive... Haha... Jia you i am sure i can do it cos even daddy also ask me to go try and i promise him that i will give my best shot so that dad don need to work till so tired for my uni and poly fee in one to four years time... Daddy i will do my best because of you... Must work hard so that i can promote to business manager as soon as possible but in 4 months time i hope that i can promote to marketing manager... jia you... Suh suh...

2008-04-10T18:09:00.001+10:00

Ahhh... Want to shout also cannot cos throat pain don't allow me to shout... Ahhhh... Never go tuition today but next thurs got 30mins of make up lesson on today lesson cos i not turning up for today english tuition cos i am dann sick... Throat pain and the medicine make me drowsy and i feel like sleeping so cant go for tuition if not later sleep through the class and not paying attention... Now have to study hard cos i promise myself that i want my dad to lead a happy life that is finacial freedom cos i can support him once i make it to BM... Ahhh... I want my dream car BMW series 5... Haha... love ya.... Have to finish my maths and english homework this week...

2008-04-10T11:44:00.003+10:00

sick for consecutive 2 days... Ahhh... Having headache, giddy and body wobbly... Later have to go see doctors so two days didnt go work... Is getting worst... Ahhhh.... Then morning lots of call from my friend, agency and supervisor as i didnt go to work so forget to inform them... Ahhhhhhhhh... I was not feeling well and cant even hold my phone properly how to inform them.... Sick ahhhh.... Heachache till now... Now aiming to become business manager... Haha.... Later have to go for english tuition at bishan so have to finsh my english homework later ahhhh personal recount...

2008-04-09T11:15:00.002+10:00

Yesterday skip chemistry tuition as i wasnt feeling so well... Haha today didnt go work cos sick so cant go work... Hee... Morning chat with dad haha then he say ask me go try and ask me to persevere and don't be afraid of failure cos is a way to success... Haha so i go venture era to try cos i am my own boss... Haha... I want to climb to business manager as fast as i can so can drive car and no need to wait for bus cos i always have to wake up early to wait for bus.. Hope my dream come true... Haha friday cos second training... Then after that maybe can go for appointment already... Hope everything will go the way i want...

2008-04-08T14:12:00.002+10:00

Too much partying last night... Now so tired still have to work.. Ahhh... Not going tuition today as i am so tired so just want to go home and sleep to replenish my energy cos i am too tired to do anything... Ahhh... Help me to stay awake and be focus in the afternoon... Now feel like sleeping again... So sick.... Headache and sore throat now cos yesterday so high till we shout... Haha... Yesterday is my first day of training as sales agent and friday will be my second day of training since i am only available on monday and friday and saturday therefor i only work part time at venture era... Haha... My dream care is my goal now and my aim is also to let my father retire within three years... Haha... Now have to finish my billing before i fall asleep... Haha... Almost sleeping...

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2008-04-08T02:59:00.001+10:00

2008-04-08T02:04:00.003+10:00

Now is 12.05am and its consider a tuesday... haha but i will blog on what happen to me on monday... Woke up late so didnt go work in the morning cos have headache the whole day... Haha... Then around 11.30am go work then found out that morning no one help me do my morning round cos normally morning there will be someone to help me.... So have to start my afternoon round early then busy all the way did like 27 patient in less than 3 hours which is quite cool... Then finish my billing for doctors before 5.20pm... Haha... Then pack my bag and get ready to go at around 5.25pm... Haha... Then go ATM to check whether my pay is credited into my account already but nope so have to wait till wednesday the latest for my pay... Haha... Then quickly walk to MRT then take train to Enous to meet maxine, my sis friend... Meet her at passion cafe then ate snack with her manager which is also my new manager haha same age as me... hehe... He chat with me and i chat with him and he tell me that he stay near my place and he told me alot why he want to work this job... Haha... Our goal and aim is the same although business is not what we want but we want our parents to retire early and we want to have fanacial freedom.... Me is i want to earn as much as i can so that i can go UK to study for my degree in medical... My aim is to at least get to business manager and have my car incentive and dream car before next chinese new year but i have to cope with studies so my manager help me to take care of my organisation after i climb to sales excutive or sales manager since he is a full timer... Haha.... But i still got money that will go into my pocket... Hope i can climb to sales manager or sales executive within a months since i am a part timer cos i have to work and study at the time being... But i am glad i got lots of friends in the organisation to help me... I want to climb to business manager because i will also become a shareholder of the company and i will also get 6% company turn over as my bonus if i climb to business manager... haha... Can drive my own BMW... Haha... Got home at around 11.55pm so now then blog cos went shower first... Cos i was at geylang serai with my other friends for supper till 11.25pm then me, maxine and dorothy went to catch the last train... Then reach tampines at around 11.45pm... haha... Had a great day cos have supper with my collegue cum friends cos all are around my age groups... Haha below 20 years of age... Then reach home later then my dad... haha didnt get scolding but get it from mum cos she ask me i go where so i tell her i go do business to earn money so that daddy can retire early and you all will have finacial freedom... Haha.... Dear Mother mary, pls teach me to be self disipline and help me and guide me in order to achieve my target... Amen...

2008-04-06T01:20:00.002+11:00

I am sad... I want to cry.... Ahhhhhhhhhhhh... My phone bill going to explode already... Mum keep on using my phone like no need money to pay like that.... Ahhhh... I am try to keep my phone bill down but she keep using my phone... Ahhhhh... Now don feel like caring anymore... Life sux.... Ahhhh... I skip my e maths tuition today... But tomorrow have to attend add maths tuition but before that i want to go popular fair to buy file... My life sux..... Today spend time use computer didnt really study but now only left 200 days to 'O'level only so have to start studying from tomorrow already cos now my aim is to get good grades so i can go to the school i want then after 'O' level examination go to venture era to work... Haha... Cos i want to climb up to business manager so that i will have my own dream car which is BMW... I want this job because of finacial freedom and to let my parent retire early... haha...... Ahhh... still got 4 more weeks before my contract ends....

2008-04-04T15:18:00.002+11:00

Yeah..... Its friday haha... Now having headache, my head going to burst soon but still have to wait... Haiz... Yesterday english tuition end at 9pm then reach home at around 10.15pm... Then shower, use computer till 1am then sleep, wake up at 6.30am... Ahhhh... Stressed... Today so cool... Doctor help me open the door... The training docotr are handsome and the old doctor are good and nice today... They help me with the door... Haha... Thanks doc... OK got to finish my billing for doc... So for now only can blog till here... Today is tedious cos this week i have to finish my english composition on my personal recount and tonight have to finish my e-maths homework since i skipped tuition last week... Ahhh... Tomorrow go my friend there for my eye check up cos she is my personal optometrist... Haha...

2008-04-03T00:38:00.001+11:00

Haiz its wednesday... Haha no tuition today so slack at home... Last min tutor cancel physics tuition... Haha... Today dann cool... Together with medical student and doctors doing same patient haha... thanks doc for helping me with the BPM of the patient... Thanks for helping me to measure... haha... Today dann ok but also dan stressed....

2008-04-02T02:30:00.003+11:00

Its tuesday.. Today was fun.... Morning got lots of patient then afternoon only got 9 patient then finish before 3pm then spend 1.5hours to study chemistry... Haha... Went down to NICL at 5pm to do my billing.. Hehe... Its fun... Today went library to borrow books before tuition... Haiz... Tuition start at 7.30pm at chec haha... End my chemistry tuition at 9.53pm but actually is 9.30pm de then after that tutor give me one to one tuition cum explaination to make me understand the topic more so late go home... Then tomorrow got JCI internal audi haven't study yet... Haiz... On the way home study abit but difficult to remember all... Reach home at 11.02pm... Then now is 11.34pm le so have to go...

2008-04-01T01:43:00.002+11:00

Ahhhhhh... Having headache now... Gonna head for shower... Hee... Today something happen at work... Haha... The doctor is so kind when i ask for help he help me... Haha... Today finish my morning round at 10am then i went back to disinfect all the equiment then after that i slept from 10.30am and when i wake up is already 12nn so i rush down to do my billing then in between i still have break... Haha... Then afternoon i rush like mad... So many patient... Haha... Then went i reach back to NICL is 4 plus then after that i do all my billing quick cos at 5pm i got JCI talk... Haha... Then the talk end around 6.30pm lor and is boring lor.... I almost fell asleep but need to memorise alot of stuff cos friday audi will be coming to ask question so i have to be mentally prepare... Haha... Then reach tampines MRT at 7.20pm then go S.A.M to pay for my 'O' level examination fee and can you imagine the exam fee is $707.25... Haha... Then after that go for dinner... Ah... After shower have to study for social studies... Haha... Tomorrow got chemistry tuition, wednesday got physics tuition, thursday got english tuition and friday lunch or after work got biology tuition but is my collegue who is teaching me... haha.... Hehe so don know how long will i take to blog... hope there is time cos i don't have time for myself... haha just have to wait for 4 week plus more then i will have more time cos i don't need to work already so just stay at home to study hope this year i will get the perfect result my parents want from me... Now is 10.54pm and i am logging off...

2008-03-30T17:59:00.003+11:00

Its sunday man.... Haha... From this coming week onwards... I will be dann busy cos from tuesday to thurs i will be having tuition on Physics, Chemistry and English and plus saturday and sunday i will be having my add maths and e maths tuition... Ahhhh... Stressed... Haha... I am still so tired... Hehe.... Yesterday went to church with my friends... hahaha its fun then after that we had lunch.. we order take away cos i opted to eat long john... Haha... Hasn't eat it for a long time already....

2008-03-29T20:38:00.002+11:00

I feel like committing suicide... I hate myself and i hate my life... I don know why i am leading this type of life.... I want to died straight away cos i hate my parent cos they always compare me with others so what if my result is not all ace...... I want to died but before that i will do my best in my examination this year... Something in my heart i wont tell my parent cos they only create heartache for me... They always think me as a pain in the ass.... I am sad and i don know who i should tell... I want to move out of the house cos i hate this house... I want to jump down and died cos i am in pain.... now study hard and show you i can do it before i cut myself to death..... Death is the only way can solve the problem and death is the only way you can test your parent how much they love you.... cos they don care about me cos they want to work and my money, i pay for my tuition fee nd all the stuff and left with no money... they don't care about me till i died... I hope sooner they will regret it after my death... I am not the happy princess anymore... I am a unlove child born out of wedlock... parent only discriminate me and hate me and they only look down on me... I had enough of them that is why i choose to died.... I hate myself to death.... Hated myself cos no one is there when i am down and no one care about me... they only want me died and they only backstep and my only friend is my blogger cos i will blog my problem here and my the other friend is mama mary cos i will pray and tell her my problem and hope mama mary teach me how to be self control and discipline in studies....

2008-03-29T01:50:00.002+11:00

Ahhhhh... Haha.... When your boyfriend book out from army on weekend don't quarrel with him cos he will tend to throw his temper cos in army they are quite stress... Haha.. I want my medical boyfriend... Haha.... hehe now is time to be serious cos when it come to play i will play and when is time to be serious i will be serious especially now i must be serious in my studies so just take the guys off my mind... Haha... Yeah... Starbuck for today.... Nice and tasty but lots of medical students buy and they buy alot... haha... Had tiramisu cake... Haha... NICE.........

2008-03-28T18:52:00.002+11:00

Yeahhhhhhhhhhh... Today is friday and is end of the month... Haha... I finishes my round very early so i went down to level to take a look at the queue at starbuck and is dann long cos at the last friday of every month tan tock seng staff are entitle to 50% off starbuck... Haha... But i go down to see mwdical student coz my sis say alot of medical student queuing up... Haha... Later after work then i go buy... Hehe... I saw a few medical student they are so handsome.... Haha... Sometime they will auto talk to me... Haha... They are quite friendly except for some... I wanna become a doctor somedays.... Got one doctor is my friends cos he always chat with me when he see me... Haha... Enjoying my life... Now my goal is to study hard so that i can get into medical school soon but still got two to three years depending on which route i choose to take... POLY or JC... But dad want me to go poly but i like research work so my teacher ask me to go JC... Haiz... STRESSED..... Aiyo next year then think lah cos i am different from my sis... cos she only can choose business cos my daddy don't allow her to choose others course so she is going to take business management or accountacy... Unlike me already have my choice... Haha now must study hard so that december i can enjoy my holiday in taipei... If i do well in my examination then i will be happyily enjoying my holiday... Haha... Hope dream come true...

2008-03-27T10:43:00.002+11:00

Today is thursday... Haha... Took hald day off from work cos having headache.... Ahhhhhhh..... I want a day of fun.... Hee... Finally keyboard is alright so i can blog already but not everyday cos i don't have much time as i have tuition and ongoing programme.... Therefore if i am free then blog... Haha... I don't know what i am going to do cos everything is in a mess... Haha... I want to finish everything on time.... Haha.....

2008-03-26T14:53:00.002+11:00

Didnt really blog for a long time already cos keyboard break down at home so can only blog at work when i am very free but now not so free cos have to do billing for the doctor... Yeah... Tomorrow have to register for english tuition... Haha... So i will be having tuition five days a week... Only left monday and friday don't have tuition so can self study for chinese, social studies and history and biology... But from april onward i will be having biology tuition so i will be having tuition six days a week... But for biology tuition, my collegue teach me cos she is also a tutor... Haha... I am so busy... Haha... Yeahhhhhhh..... Haha... No time for myself... hehe... Oh yes just remember i didnt finish my elementary maths homework from my uncle... Hehe... Have to finish by friday lor... Today got physics tuition... Its has been two week plus i didnt attend my phyics tuition so today have to go... Haha... Then go home maybe use computer to ready fanic story cos didnt finish reading it... Haha... Sis ask me whether am i going thailand in april with her i say go on friday morning come back on sunday night but she want to go chiang mai but all my friends are in bangkok so i want to go bangkok cos i miss irene sis cos she go bangkok to study while my other friends and sis went to perth to study... Will try to blog soon if i have the time...

2008-03-24T15:13:00.001+11:00

I didnt blog for a few day already... I am unwell now still having headache... Coz down with flu... haiz still have to work.... Yeahh.... will blog when free now currently busy...

2008-03-20T13:53:00.002+11:00

Its thursday and tomorrow is good friday haha therefore got a day off.... Hee... Having headache coz not having enough sleep coz wake up at 2am cos sleep at 8pm... Then didnt do my e maths homework, therefore i will be doing it today... I am tired but if i am still not well, i will do my homework tomorrow morning since i have tuition in the afternoon... Oh dead... This week fri, sat and sunday is maths and additional maths tuition... Oh yaya... Tired cos today down with cold and flu... haha... gotta go finish my stuff le if not pile up like mountain tall... hehe...

2008-03-19T15:38:00.002+11:00

Yeahhhhh... Going to attend distinction tutorial school for my english haha... start in april lor... Oh yeahhh... I miss going to school with bowen, irene, rose, sui kai, zheng yang and jospehine coz we always had fun making fun of eachother... But only rose make it to yishun JC... But she say JC life for her is tough... Where should i go??? I wanna go JC too cos got higher chance to get into medical... Ahhhhhhhh... Now must study hard already so i can get what i aim...... Hee... Oh my god, i got tonne of tuition class to attend... Haha so maybe not intending to work part time already cos i not too sure i can handle work and studies at the same time anot.... Haha... Now must save money for my overseas education.... Haha... So hungry and yeah 18 more minutes to luch time so got to go... BYE.... Boring life....

2008-03-19T14:59:00.002+11:00

Yeah its wednesday... Haha... Cos tomorrow is thursday and friday is good friday and finally i can rest for a day... Haha... Yeah... I am back from my morning round... haiz... Its hetic... Tuesday and wednesday morning are the most hetic one... Haha... Now resting oh shit havent finish my homework and revision since i skip my chemistry tuition yesterday... Haha...

2008-03-18T15:05:00.002+11:00

Yeah....... So bored... Ahhhhhhhhhh... Got tuition in the evening today oh ya chemistry... Haha... Its a day of fun haha... Oh ya enjoying myself... Haha... Today have to finish my e maths homework since yesterday i did not finish my homework... Oh ya.... Should study chemistry already cos havent touch yet since i am busy with my work... Ahhhhhhhhh.... Oh dead... Haha... Going to resign soon haha... Lucky my last day of work is 30th April haha... Yeah next year if i go Poly got body check up before you enrol in poly so dann cool... Haha... What should i do.... Hehe... 5 subject tutor by 4 different teachers... dann cool... But i only have tuition for e maths, additional maths, physics, chemistry and biology and english is going to be starting at the beginning of april... haha... so there will be six subjects i got tuition... dann cool... finished blogging for the day... haha maybe at night then blog... oh yeahhhhhhhhh... I dann miss my friends and jie who are in australia and thailand...

2008-03-17T19:46:00.002+11:00

Yeah... I am back from my afternoon round already cool... I finished very early... haha now slacking cos nothing to do... Haha... YEah still got 45mins more i can off work le... Haha... Dann cool... Haha... YEAH... Having fun in my workplace coz my friend are willing to teach me in my schoolwork... Oh yeah... Ahhhhhhhhh... I think i am going to be down with flu already.... Haiz... Sick... Having sore throat ahhhhhhh... cant talk loudly... Oh my God.... what had happen to me now.... haiz... yeah.. e zuo ju 2 wen is nice... Can view at youtube cos now only show till 14 episode coz every week only show one episode in taiwan... Haiz... But cant watch too much also coz have to study hard for exam already... Oh have to finish my e maths homework immediately when i reach home... CANT DRAG COS IN THE END WILL HAVE LOTS OF HOMEWORK DE.... Oh die die die... Haha... Oh ya should watch the show but actually not as nice as the first part de cos the sequel quite funny it say about xiang qing and zhi shu marriage life.... ok now have to end le.... STUDY HARD....

2008-03-17T13:47:00.005+11:00

Yeah... Finally back from my morning round... Haha... Yesterday maths homework haven't do yet... Have to do by today coz i don't want to drag... If i drag, i have more homework to do... Hee... Today have to study history... Haha... About russia... Finish my homework first then study history and take down the key point of what i have to remember... Haha... Now having free time so i am resting and doing my billing for the doctors at the same time... Ah.... Tomorrow got Chemistry tuition, Wednesday got Physics tuition, Friday got e maths and additional maths tuition in the afternoon... Haha and from April i will be having english tuition on friday haiz is group tuition lorz... Haha... Don't know leh... Only got tuition for English, e maths, additional maths, chemistry, physics and my collegue teach me Biology so left with social studies with elective history and chinese i have to self study... Haha... Way to go... Should i go Poly or should i go JC since JC have a higher chance to get into medicine and other top medical school like monash university faculty of medicine... Haiz... What should i choose... Maybe i should treat my studies as my top prority and think about the choices after my examination and after i come back from my taipei trip in december... Haha... I have difficulties in making choices... Now studies come before anything in the world... I love studies cos i have the best teacher like xiao shu cos whatever he teach me i can asorb... Last year he teach me i don't even care cos i am mischieveous but now i am changed coz whatever he teach i understand... Yeah... Haha... Now should really focus already... Yeahhhhhhh.... Ok should end here already coz have to finish my billing...

2008-03-17T03:00:00.002+11:00

Everyday quarrel with dad.... I am sick of him already.... Yeah today additional maths tuition, i know how to do most of them... But had dinner at grandma house, the best dinner i had for the week... Then after dinner, i took a shower at grandma house.... After that uncle mark my e maths homework... After correcting my mistake and teaching me how to do... He give me another set of question on a different topic to do... Today study from chapter 2 of additional maths to chapter 3.2 of additional maths... From siultaneous equation to indices and surds.... Haha... After every topics he will give me a set of question to do to see whether i know how to solve but most of the question i solve correctly... Haha... Today i learn alot.... Thanks uncle for teaching me cos he is the best teacher and he teach easier than other teacher... haha... Today receive a messege from my best friend asking me whether i want to go Thailand with her then i say yes but i also told her that make sure the date don't clash with my examination... I don't even bother to ask my dad... He is very ridiculous nowadays and i quarrel with him most of the time..... Hate my life therefore i use studies and work to numb myself.... Haha.... 4 more days to good friday cos is a holiday for me but i have e maths and additional maths tuition on that day.... Hee.....